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Just….Staring!!! A scene from an episode of “Boyster” from Disney X D

 

Last week I was going over my messages on Facebook. A Pastor friend of mine whose extremely creative, and a downright awesome guy, made a comment about how we often focus more on the works and creative pieces of other people rather than focus on improving our own craft!

After all, do you think the person creating the work you’re focused so much on is really worried about what you’re doing as much as you are about what they are doing!?

OUCH!!! I mean, man, really!?!? But, he’s right. That little Facebook post bugged me for days…and I mean…days!!!

I’ll speak for myself! Just the other day I could’ve been writing and working on my book or my blog, but, I decided to kick back and watch a couple of episodes of “Boyster” and “Angelo Rules” and for good measure the 9 o’clock news followed by Disney Channel’s “Phineas and Ferb.”

Granted, I needed the rest. But, otherwise, if I wasn’t writing this blog post I would be watching a cartoon series or some kind of news show.

Over the past few days, as that Facebook post haunted me, I began to pray and really take some quiet time to see what that meant. I came to several conclusions and laziness was NOT one of them.

I felt like no one would care to read a thing I wrote. I looked at other people’s work and secretly said, “man, that’s awesome work. I could never write like this” or “I could never draw that good” or any kind of garbage that was coming from my insecurities and lack of faith.

I had to have time with God to sort all of that out! And, I simply needed to get back on track and make real goals to get my stuff done!

But you got to imagine too….the people you’re looking at were probably, MAYBE, thinking the same thing when they were looking at someone else, right!? Or maybe, the secret is this…stop looking towards the work of others, but towards the one that called you to the work. There’s nothing inherently wrong with admiring work…just don’t let that steal you from honing your craft.

But, they created such an awesome product.

The cartoons I watch, the TV shows I enjoy and the books I love reading are a product of people who were too busy finishing up their own craft to stare at someone else’s finished product!

My goal, and I think it is something YOU should try too if you have this problem, is to back off on admiring the works of others so, so terribly much, and take the time to shut off all distractions and really get into your own work, your own dreams and your own goals.

A giant bucket of Ice Cream

This is not necessarily one of my average types of articles. Heck, it’s not even an average title for me.

What do you do when life doesn’t seem to be going the way you dreamed it would go from when you were younger? What if you tried and tried and tried and it seemed like the only thing you were doing was making a complete and total fool of yourself? What do you do when it just feels like you’ve done everything you could right, only for people to look at you as though you failed them but really they failed you!?

This whole week…NO….the past few months have been frustrating and in some ways just disappointing. Some VERY good things happened during those times too, but, sometimes those bad times hit really hard especially if it hits you in your core.

You try to do something about it. You really do! You don’t want to sit and wallow in self-pity, but, when you suffer with depression and it feels like you have to work twice as hard as the average person to stay positive, you feel like doing the opposite of “something” about tit.

If anything, and if you’re like me, you often feel like doing exactly what the boy is doing in the picture….gorging yourself with ice cream until you feel better.

Over the next couple of days, I want to help people who are feeling like failures, losers and wimps. I want people to know that even though you may feel like this…like the world is coming to an end for you sooner than you think…like in some ways that your life doesn’t matter…I want to encourage you that it does.

My hope is that as things unfold here, that overtime, I can help someone whose dealing with deep, personal struggles of failure, depression and other issues.

After all, you and I both know that while it is nice and temporary to gorge oneself with several buckets of ice cream, it won’t solve the underline problem.

Let’s walk this journey together. You’re not alone!

Look for me sharing more about my own personal struggles but also as I share what has helped me go forward in spite of these trying times.

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"Boyster" from Disney XD and my comic strip character, Ken

“Boyster” from Disney XD and my comic strip character, Ken

It is amazing what happens when issues of life unfold and what comes out of you when things hit.

Some personal, family matters unfolded and it has caused me to be away from the blog for a little while, but now, it looks like things are going to be okay.

This weekend, I drew pictures of my character and a DisneyXD character named “Boyster” hanging out.

As for organizing, I managed to clean out ALL of my flash drives and organize my documents, images, video and audio files on my hard drives. And it feels great! Everything is organized and my desktop is not unbelievably crowded with an endless sea of files.

I even did a bit of journaling about the weekend and it helped keep me sane. It was so nice to release the thoughts going through my mind.

Having a backpack with me, carrying my journal and my sketchbook and other items served me well this weekend. And, I had a chance to learn some powerful, valuable lessons throughout the process.

Taking A Break

October 2, 2014 — Leave a comment

Needless to say, I have been taking sort of a break from the blogging world. A LOT is going on over on my end, so, this is a chance for me to get things caught up and then come back and share some thoughts and commentary here again.

Nonetheless, I shall return. Hopefully within a week or two.