Earlier this week, I grew discouraged about several things that were going on and not going in my life. I began to loose a lot of confidence and faith and was feeling depressed.
I am happy to say that I made it through that and thank God that I have!
I want to admit something to all of you!
Just about every day, I daydream about something that has been in my head for far too long. I wrote this story about two boys and a pet otter going storm chasing and inside of my head and on paper, the story is several books and several stories ahead of itself.
I have all of my characters! I have their personalities! I have the city! I have the action moments! I have this vision of a cartoon series or movie in my mind and heart! Its like I know the characters! I can see my main characters who are brothers getting into crazy calamity and partnered with them an eccentric but really smart otter! I can see there young and hyper cousin riding a robot destroyer. Even more, I can see my main characters dealing with issues and sitting in the church, asking the question “why” and leaving the audience with a powerful message at the end.
Guy’s, this vision I’ve been having for more than 7 years, and, to be honest, I haven’t been fully diligent in implementing it.
Its my fault…and I have no one to blame for that except me. I spent so much time chasing after different things and trying to create and create and create, that I never bothered to finish what I started out of fear of failure or fear of never seeing it become great.
Then God convicted me with this point…”its not your job to determine how big it gets…..its your job to create and let it speak for itself…..I’ll decide whether its noticed or not and how big it gets.”
I realized I didn’t have to carry this strange weight anymore and I didn’t have to feel like a failure! I still have a responsibility though….I gotta complete the vision.
I daydream about cartoons, I daydream about ministry and I daydream and think about my stories and ideas. I realized today that it was by no means a coincidence nor a random occurrence that happened for no good reason. It stuck with me for this long for a reason. I must own it…otherwise, once I die, it goes too. I don’t want to stand before God and say “well, God, I never finished that story because…(insert my own lame excuse here)….but hey, at least I started Cartoon Daily News.” I don’t think that will cut it.
In fact….it will NOT cut it!
I’m excited to say now, I have given myself up…and am now ready to walk in my destiny!
I see drawing.
I see writing.
I see ministry.
I see my purpose and what God has been trying to show me this entire time!
What changed my life so suddenly: The Lord showed me Deuteronomy 8:3…..
“And he humbled thee, and suffered thee to hunger, and fed thee with manna, which thou knewest not, neither did thy fathers know; that he might make thee know that man doth not live by bread only, but by every word that proceedeth out of the mouth of the Lord doth man live.”
Everyone…..I WILL Finish The Vision!!!