Starting A New (NOT Starting Over)
This Sunday was a different experience around the dinner table at my aunt’s and uncle’s. I explained the them that I had no choice but to just move out of my apartment and start things over in my life.
My uncle walked in and exclaimed that this was not merely a “start over” in my life as much as it was a “new beginning.” At least, that’s the best way I remember him saying it. He was telling me how God was moving me from one storyline to a new season…a new storyline.
I’m good with that! Interesting that an hour before he told me that the sermon at church was about “Pressing On.”
Moving out was hard…both physically and mentally. The more my apartment emptied out the more depressing it looked. I recalled all the fun times I had staying in that place and wished that it would last a little longer. But throughout the entire move it felt like the Lord was letting me see some things…little things that spoke large volumes over the situation.
Ultimately, I learned if you want to go forward and be successful, sometimes the thing, the places, the people that we hold on too so tightly have to go in order for us to go forward.
Blasts From The Past
Speaking of going forward, I ran into some items that reminded me of how far I have come and my passions…from old comics and illustrations I sketched together…to old hats I used to wear from my favorite media outlets…right down to some comic books that I bought from an epic cartoonist named Chris Moujaes.
As I held on to those comics, I kid-like kind of excitement surged through me as I thought about the very first time I bought “Coz Effect” and “Battlegate.” I read them over and over and I promised myself I wouldn’t get rid of these…EVER! The illustrations and drawings as well as the impeccable storyline was too good to just let go. I even got the chance to read a page or two even though I was really supposed to be packing.
Typical cartoonist and comic fan…I know!
But, I couldn’t help it. Which, of course, reminded me of my own passion and the passion I have for media.
Even when I found my old Fox 4 News hat, I felt the same way. The excitement…the memories…the fact that all of my experiences began to culminate into something bigger than myself. Right now…it sucked…but looking at these mile markers made me realize that it was really going to be “OK.”
Once I was done moving into my new spot, I plugged in the TV and my computer and chose to stream some local news to catch up with the universe and watch “Gravity Falls.”
I had to relax and rest and let myself soak up my new surroundings and the new reality of what was potentially to come.
Right now, everything seems to be moving at fast pace but I’m confident that things will surely slow down a bit. I haven’t had a chance to do a WHOLE lot of writing or drawing and that’s sort of making me anxious and irritable.
As I read and look at epic work that inspires me to follow my passion of writing and cartooning along with ministry in the first place…people like Lincoln Peirce (Big Nate), Danny Fry (Skooled), Jeff Kinney (Diary of a Wimpy Kid) and H.G. Sansostri (Little Dudes Skool Survival Guide)….I can’t help but be excited about my own work and the future that lies before me!
God called me to a great place and position and I refuse to be upset or disappointed about my current spot in life.
But, I won’t let it frustrate me…after all, I have Faith that it’ll work out and that if I’m disciplined and focus the time will be available to do what I’ve been called to do.