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Seeing God as Father

May 24, 2017

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Early Wednesday morning, I was writing in my journal while having a coffee in one of my favorite local shops in Garland, Texas. While writing, I was chronicling the experience I was having with the Lord for the past 24-48 hours.

 

Then, out came this narrative…a narrative that really described what I was experiencing.

The entire experience could be likened to that of a 16-year-old boy whose outrageously upset.

About what!? Sure, he’s a teenager. What could he possibly be angry about? It can’t possibly be THAT big of a deal. He’s a teenager. But, his Father doesn’t approach it that way. He’s got an issue…He meet’s his son where he is in his sons maturity (or lack there of) for that moment.

In the teens’ moment of anger, frustration and teenage angst boosted to 100 on a scale of 1 to 10 he sees that everything sucks…his life sucks…and he wants a do-over and feels totally mistreated and misunderstood. He wants things to work for him…but…he can’t see past his wants to see how good he actually has it. Sure, a couple of really awesome things are going on…but…he’s lacking a true view of how blessed he really is.

He stomps his way to his room and slams the door. In this story, the Father stops at nothing to get his son to talk. But, he knows that the boy has to cool down before really being able to reach him.

Once the son leaves his room and enters the space in the house where the Father often resides, the Father asks him to sit with him.

He wants his son to explain, specifically, what’s troubling him.

The young teen tries to use his words. His Father can read between the lines. He moves closer and wraps his arm around his beloved son. And in between the words come tears from his son. His Father asks his son to let him handle the problems.

Once the son and his Father talked it out, the son decided to trust again and love again.

And, he apologized for his attitude in the moment.

The son realizes that he was being pretty self-centered and selfish…but the Father was well aware of where it was coming from. And, he dealt with his sons heart…he dealt with the the legitimate aches with legitimate truth.

 

 

I’m so grateful for God being so patient with me and so loving and so kind. I’m grateful that He sent His son Jesus. I’m grateful that the Lord stops me before I make things become more about me rather than about HIM. I’m thankful and grateful that He loves me where I am and invites me into more in Him…a life that perpetually shows that Jesus is FIRST and ONLY.

When I actually seek the Lord FIRST I not only have nothing to worry about, but, I also stop worrying, period!

Matthew 6:33 says “But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you.”

I’m grateful for the Lord loving me and disciplining me so I can actually come to a place of maturity in Him.

God and I in 2016

December 8, 2016

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In the year 2016 I have seen God allow for doors to open and doors to close. I have experienced deep joy in some parts of my life and periods of deep sadness and disappointment.

Even major bouts of depression, wondering if I should give up on everything…hopes…dreams…goals…everything.

I went back and forth on whether I should’ve done this or that, or, maybe if I had only made this decision or taken this opportunity or gone this or that direction.

Those moments, I was angry…frustrated…lost…confused…hurt…even a little scared. I wanted things to happen in my life that were the complete reverse of what I was seeing. I was told to trust God and keep the faith but was hurting so much inside that I was numb to it.

Even as I write this its…to be honest…really uncomfortable…like “naked in public” type of uncomfortable. But, kind of refreshing at the same time.

Living for Jesus is hard. And yet, I’ll have it no other way.

Jesus freed me from a life where I walked in bitterness and anger towards my own race…towards my own people.

Jesus freed me from a life where I could’ve chosen to live any kind of way…to a life that said that He was all I need.

Jesus is tearing down the walls of my own agenda, making me rethink my life as a whole and totally rewiring my mindset. I

In this, I think of the scripture in Romans about being transformed by the renewing of my mind!

That is happening in a big way and I thank the Lord for every moment that transformation to be in His image is taking place.

For Real About Jesus

September 17, 2016

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This week has proven to be one of the MOST important weeks of my life. A sermon about the blood of Jesus on Wednesday followed by my concerns regarding confidence in Jesus versus in myself and my relationship with Jesus came to the forefront.

Things were getting serious!

Before the week ended, I began reading Matthew 7:21-23 (NKJV):

“Not everyone who says to Me, ‘Lord, Lord,’ shall enter the kingdom of heaven, but he who does the will of My Father in heaven.  Many will say to Me in that day, ‘Lord, Lord, have we not prophesied in Your name, cast out demons in Your name, and done many wonders in Your name?’  And then I will declare to them, ‘I never knew you; depart from Me, you who practice lawlessness!’

Then the question hit…have I really been about the will of the Father!? And am I about Jesus in words only or in my entire heart and life!? This is something that ALL of us should seriously consider and ask the Lord to examine our hearts when it comes to following God and Christ Jesus!

Oh sure, we ask that “God’s will” be done but really, deep within our hearts, when we are told “no” about that opportunity or when we are hoping for that big “thing” to come through for us and it doesn’t, we are greatly disappointed.

Our lives are rocked and we begin to doubt and question God. We get unbelievably upset and angry.

it is a horrific mental and spiritual state to be in when the blood of Jesus seems meager to your burdens in life. 

If we are truly about our relationship with Jesus Christ we will be obedient to God the Father. We will live a life that is evident of the relationship we have in Jesus! How might we be obedient…and what about…that is found in God’s Word.

For those in Christ, we can rejoice in the fact that everything we go through and everything that we face is not the end! Faith in God and Christ Jesus says that I will not cut and run nor give up at the site of trouble or strain or strife.

 

 

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It was early in the morning. About 1am to be exact.

I was still awake, feeling a bit out of sorts. I was begging and pleading to God about how I struggled with seeing any value in me and in what He thought of me.

It was a journey that began days prior with God making me acknowledge that I needed to spend more time in my Bible.

I was led to Psalm 139 and upon reading the entire Psalm I specifically focused on verse 14:

“I will praise you for I am fearfully and wonderfully made, marvelous are your works…”

After reading the text, I was struck with a feeling of disappointment.

“Really!?” I thought. “God, surely there’s more to it then that!”

I spoke again to God, asking Him to show me where I’m wrong. I knew I was wrong…but I was willing to let the Lord point out what was up with me and my heart.

In frustration, I headed to my bedroom to finally try and go to bed. The minute that my head hit the pillow, I heard the following message:

“Stop trying to get your value from people and things.”

It started making sense. Tears welled up in my eyes and I got up immediately. I asked the Lord to forgive me…how foolish was I to totally miss what God was REALLY doing.

Verse 14…David’s praise to the Lord…His worship of the Father. He Loved the Lord and throughout Psalm 139 before you we even get to verse 14 he acknowledges that the God knows every single thing about Him and had his entire life lined up before he was even existent.

David knew God. He loved God. He worshipped Him. Your value and mine comes from my relationship with God…as Father…as the one who sent His son Jesus…and Provider…as Protecter…as Creator… and so, so much more!

I couldn’t appreciate what God was saying because it was a matter of “Praise,” or more specifically, “thankfulness.” I had to learn to be thankful for God making me as He did.

Then note what else David said…”I am fearfully and wonderfully made.” “Fearfully” would be defined simply as “respect” or “with respect too” and “Wonderfully” is “unique” or “complex.” It could also mean “set apart.

God created you for a purpose…to Glorify Him and to do it through daily acknowledgement of Him and His son Jesus whom he sent to take our place on the cross. God has also given you purpose and life and abilities and opportunities to be all that you were created to be. You may not be able to do “everything” and “anything,” but you have the God-given capacity to do certain things.

For me, this became a pretty big deal!

My view began to shift as I considered all of the ways the Lord made me…how He set me apart…created me…the kind of gifts and abilities he gave me.

In fact, that night began a whole new shift in the way I saw myself and what I had to learn regarding what God thought of me.

There was more than enough reason to respond and react like David…with praise and thanksgiving to God.