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Seeing God as Father

May 24, 2017

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Early Wednesday morning, I was writing in my journal while having a coffee in one of my favorite local shops in Garland, Texas. While writing, I was chronicling the experience I was having with the Lord for the past 24-48 hours.

 

Then, out came this narrative…a narrative that really described what I was experiencing.

The entire experience could be likened to that of a 16-year-old boy whose outrageously upset.

About what!? Sure, he’s a teenager. What could he possibly be angry about? It can’t possibly be THAT big of a deal. He’s a teenager. But, his Father doesn’t approach it that way. He’s got an issue…He meet’s his son where he is in his sons maturity (or lack there of) for that moment.

In the teens’ moment of anger, frustration and teenage angst boosted to 100 on a scale of 1 to 10 he sees that everything sucks…his life sucks…and he wants a do-over and feels totally mistreated and misunderstood. He wants things to work for him…but…he can’t see past his wants to see how good he actually has it. Sure, a couple of really awesome things are going on…but…he’s lacking a true view of how blessed he really is.

He stomps his way to his room and slams the door. In this story, the Father stops at nothing to get his son to talk. But, he knows that the boy has to cool down before really being able to reach him.

Once the son leaves his room and enters the space in the house where the Father often resides, the Father asks him to sit with him.

He wants his son to explain, specifically, what’s troubling him.

The young teen tries to use his words. His Father can read between the lines. He moves closer and wraps his arm around his beloved son. And in between the words come tears from his son. His Father asks his son to let him handle the problems.

Once the son and his Father talked it out, the son decided to trust again and love again.

And, he apologized for his attitude in the moment.

The son realizes that he was being pretty self-centered and selfish…but the Father was well aware of where it was coming from. And, he dealt with his sons heart…he dealt with the the legitimate aches with legitimate truth.

 

 

I’m so grateful for God being so patient with me and so loving and so kind. I’m grateful that He sent His son Jesus. I’m grateful that the Lord stops me before I make things become more about me rather than about HIM. I’m thankful and grateful that He loves me where I am and invites me into more in Him…a life that perpetually shows that Jesus is FIRST and ONLY.

When I actually seek the Lord FIRST I not only have nothing to worry about, but, I also stop worrying, period!

Matthew 6:33 says “But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you.”

I’m grateful for the Lord loving me and disciplining me so I can actually come to a place of maturity in Him.

God and I in 2016

December 8, 2016

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In the year 2016 I have seen God allow for doors to open and doors to close. I have experienced deep joy in some parts of my life and periods of deep sadness and disappointment.

Even major bouts of depression, wondering if I should give up on everything…hopes…dreams…goals…everything.

I went back and forth on whether I should’ve done this or that, or, maybe if I had only made this decision or taken this opportunity or gone this or that direction.

Those moments, I was angry…frustrated…lost…confused…hurt…even a little scared. I wanted things to happen in my life that were the complete reverse of what I was seeing. I was told to trust God and keep the faith but was hurting so much inside that I was numb to it.

Even as I write this its…to be honest…really uncomfortable…like “naked in public” type of uncomfortable. But, kind of refreshing at the same time.

Living for Jesus is hard. And yet, I’ll have it no other way.

Jesus freed me from a life where I walked in bitterness and anger towards my own race…towards my own people.

Jesus freed me from a life where I could’ve chosen to live any kind of way…to a life that said that He was all I need.

Jesus is tearing down the walls of my own agenda, making me rethink my life as a whole and totally rewiring my mindset. I

In this, I think of the scripture in Romans about being transformed by the renewing of my mind!

That is happening in a big way and I thank the Lord for every moment that transformation to be in His image is taking place.

For Real About Jesus

September 17, 2016

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This week has proven to be one of the MOST important weeks of my life. A sermon about the blood of Jesus on Wednesday followed by my concerns regarding confidence in Jesus versus in myself and my relationship with Jesus came to the forefront.

Things were getting serious!

Before the week ended, I began reading Matthew 7:21-23 (NKJV):

“Not everyone who says to Me, ‘Lord, Lord,’ shall enter the kingdom of heaven, but he who does the will of My Father in heaven.  Many will say to Me in that day, ‘Lord, Lord, have we not prophesied in Your name, cast out demons in Your name, and done many wonders in Your name?’  And then I will declare to them, ‘I never knew you; depart from Me, you who practice lawlessness!’

Then the question hit…have I really been about the will of the Father!? And am I about Jesus in words only or in my entire heart and life!? This is something that ALL of us should seriously consider and ask the Lord to examine our hearts when it comes to following God and Christ Jesus!

Oh sure, we ask that “God’s will” be done but really, deep within our hearts, when we are told “no” about that opportunity or when we are hoping for that big “thing” to come through for us and it doesn’t, we are greatly disappointed.

Our lives are rocked and we begin to doubt and question God. We get unbelievably upset and angry.

it is a horrific mental and spiritual state to be in when the blood of Jesus seems meager to your burdens in life. 

If we are truly about our relationship with Jesus Christ we will be obedient to God the Father. We will live a life that is evident of the relationship we have in Jesus! How might we be obedient…and what about…that is found in God’s Word.

For those in Christ, we can rejoice in the fact that everything we go through and everything that we face is not the end! Faith in God and Christ Jesus says that I will not cut and run nor give up at the site of trouble or strain or strife.

 

 

 Those Days!

Today was one of those days! The deep desire to write today rose up and I just couldn’t help myself. I had to say something that would be meaningful! but what!?

Over the past few weeks, I have had intense highs and am dealing with some valley struggles. And yet, I know everything is going to be fine and okay.

It is like God has been whispering into my ear, telling me, “keep going” and “I’m with you” and “I put this in you…go forward.”

And yet, my circumstances sometimes seem to be just as loud as the conversation.

But, perhaps that’s the point. It is the decision to trust God…the decision to step forward…the decision at that break neck moment when the urge to write kicks in but the feeling of utter false failure and humiliation kicks in to try and keep you from being all that you are supposed to be.

Then again, it is the moment that you have the urge to do something that you really, truly enjoy and feel called too, and you make that decision right away to just do it. Why!? Because letting that moment pass my literally mean missing the opportunity to help and bless someone else!

I have people in my life who really trust me, love me and believe in me that helps make it worth while. The people that I am referring to have been my supporters and biggest fans from the beginning. It is all the more a good reason for me to not quite writing and blogging.

Now What!?

Lately, I have really been considering what I need to do to this blog site. The obvious answer is to keep writing. The other obvious answer is to keep writing about the things that I’m passionate about…and…share with all of you.

I think more than half of the reason I actually stopped writing for a period is because I actually forgot to share what was important:  My life and how much it has changed because of Faith…people….challenges….from childhood to adulthood.

With that, I am back and ready to put in the extra effort, and, even throw in a couple of sketches here and there.